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Thursday, February 28, 2008 9:54 AM

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Hahaz...Okay!! this entry is going to be long..i've told shuxian about it and yesh!! time to blog it out((: by the time i blog..most of you should already knew..but yeah!! everything is so first time to me!! and this time i'm seriously serious..=)

Right!! so here goes..

before i really want to start a relationship with shuxian, there's this very special feeling..so strong that this time..i want my family to know..i want my family to be acceptance of her and i do not want to start with shuxian before that..though could have started way before 14th Feb..but i'm waiting to start off on a special date and so i just keep saying i need more courage, i need more courage..i want to get the acceptance thingy..but actually the fact is that i'm stalling for time only..=PpP waiting for the most unique date of the year!! hehez...been counting down for SOsoSo long and i really cannot take it any longer...lucky the time shall arrive soon..(^^,) she cant read blogspot now because she's back at hainan..so i'm actually blogging it..but if anyone of you who know her..happen to read this entry of mine...please dun let her know please!! hahahahhaz...

Back to topic!!

but friends out there who know me..should understand that i'm not the type that dare to tell my mum about me going into bgr...so i struggled for sometime, pondering over how should i break the news..but i'm definite i'm serious about shuxian because i didnt hesitate much when i had the chance...i swallowed my saliva and i gave it all i have...
Joel worriedly: "Mummy..What's your opinion of me going into a relationship.."
Mum replied: "What's there to opinion about..this kind of thing no opinion..when it happens, it just happens.."
Joel with a relieve: "orh" (was thinking of opening my mouth for the next part when suddenly..)
after a few minutes,
Mum questioningly: "Don't you think is abit too early or too fast? You're after all still young so why rush into it?"
Joel shyingly: "We've been really close friends for 5years.."
Mum repeated: "5years?! izzit shuxian?"
Joel with no hesistation: "yupp!!((:"
and her attitude change and she agrees to it and yesh!! i'm really happy about that!! =)
I was so happy that i cannot wait to let Shuxian know about it!! hahz!!

but because my DaJie was using my laptop, i couldn't go online only until 1am and within this period, my mum spoke to me about shuxian asking me what i see in her and ask me tell her more about shuxian..ask me why this and why that..wads our plan or something...then hahaz!! it was really great knowing my mum thinks good about her..and i know if shuxian is reading, she'll like to know what did i answer when my mum ask me what i see in shuxian...and most prob all of you want to know it too? kekez...*lalala* i replied saying she've always been there for me and she's the sweetest(dun ask if i've tasted her!!) most gentle girl i've ever came across because even when she's angry, she's still soft and cute...not like most of them i know..will become tigress..hahaz!! so yeah....i know she'll be very nice to me and will not scold me or boss me around and that's the kind of girl i've always been looking for...if not i'll only always get bullied..

then ya!! when i went online at 1am..i told her i've got something very happy to tell her!! and she too said she've something very happy to tell me too..but hahaz..cos it was getting late and i don't want the whole conver to go until the sun is almost up..so decided to exchange the information the next day..and guess what?!? the information we exchange is the same!! is like...we naturally wants our family members to know about us and we will just do it..not like usually when ppl have to wait till stable before telling others about it..but ya!!!!! we want to say it even before we begin!! (^^) blessed.....

so now back to me asking DaJie for advise..

One day, when i went home, i realise my DaJie was on my blog..and the next day, while she was in her office, she confronted me and yaa..i started asking her for advise and she told me to just let my mum know instead of asking her..and guess what?!? My DaJie shared my situation with her colleagues and they were like omg.....before asking her how old am i..so after my daJie mention i'm 20, they were going like..omg x2.....why would he even ask for consultation or even wanna let mum know before starting..this is so rare!! wanna start just start la!! and after knowing more details like we've been close friends for 5years before i decided to ask her to be my gf and even so, i'm still waiting for the special date which is 29th feb...they were really surprised and said i'm one of a kind and is really "Jue Zhong" "De Nan Ren" so to put it in a simpler way, they used the term dinosaur on me...and keep saying i this kind of guy really extinct..but hahaz!! i dunno leh...i'm just not into holding so many girl's hand to try out and cmi then break..i want to hold just one hand and hold it for the rest of my life..am i weird? i think i seriously am..why do i have such thinking anyway...hahz!! but that's me...((:

though i may like quite a number of girls, but that kind of liking is idol? potential? just wanna be friends first because thought they're suitable? NEVER did i ask them to be my gf before..just some close relationship in terms of interaction to find out more and become really close friend or even best of friend..(n_n)

so anyway, as long i was single, isn't it right to know more friends? so why, being with so many girls and treating them so good means i'm "Hua Xin" type and being with me may not have "An Quan Gan"? hahaz..so i guess only shuxian knows me best...we were closest of close friend, bestest of best friend, always there for each other for 5years and she never once comment about me of that problem..(^o,^) but anyway, i've been neglecting her ever since she was sec1 and now is time for me to cherish her..(^-^)

last time always tried to avoid her when she's trying to hint me because i totally think i'm not compatible with her cos i see her as gorgeously perfect and i'm so toad? furthermore, she being the girl i like plus started off as such close friend though we juz knew each other..i do not want to eventually hurt her and so i just keep avoiding, avoiding and avoiding...even when she do alot of stuff just for me...i rather keep my lips seal and hide my feelings away and be her close friend instead..because i'm sure that will be forever...so......this time is a different case..for some reason this year i've build up enough guts and confident to be with her and i really want to cherish her!! it's time to cherish her!! and i'm ready to even share with ppl about us because i want to let everyone know of shuxian..((:

anyway back to the dino topic..so that explains why i displayed my personal nick on msn which is everyone calls me dinosaur..then a few ppl dunno wad i meant but TYM-TAN YI MEI came to me and said "I KNOW WHY YOU DINOSAUR!! COS YOU THIS KINDA GUY EXTINCT ALREADY!!!" then i was like -.- then i replied erm.......hahz....then she started talking to me about me and shuxian and she was like wanting to bring me to the museum because i really belong there..hee.....but dunno lah!! i'm weird..that's just me..=) but "she" like "Jiu Hao Le"((: *lalala*

guess we're just meant to be together..meant for each other..in christianity, every individual that God creates, actually comes in pair..so if is meant to be, it's meant to be...and why say i ppmm-"Po Po Ma Ma" to only wanna start after 5years..say i drag for so long..but this actually prove we're meant to be and it's really meant to be..(^^,) what if we started when she was sec 1 and i was sec3? will we still be lasting? so if after 5years and we're both back to square 1 again...it means something already..we're meant to be till the end...c",)

I webcam with her last night leh!! got to see her and ya....dun have to spell out the mushy part and hahaz!! when we ended the webcam as i was going out with ShaoHong, Nickolas supposingly TANG JUN LI GINLI too...she PS-US LO!!! say she tired don't wanna go out cos need to rest...but she ended up playing DOTA!!!! so bad....but anyway the 3of us went vivo to find HuiXin and Marlene to go for supper..why vivo? because there's this project exhibition going on there and they've got to make preparation...and ya....had great fun!! love them all!! =PpP

i think i'll stop here...only slept 2+ hours and after typing so much...i cant remember if i miss out anything anot..i shall update again!! bye ppl!!!! byebye.....

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